Three Years and Some Months Later

It's been some time since my last post, a little over three years.  A lot has happened during that time, and although I've thought about posting here and there, I haven't had the drive to continue this particular blog, which I'll leave up in the event that anyone else finds themselves going down the rabbit hole with a cosmic initiation, akashic download, or starseed awakening; whatever you want to call it.  Such experiences really defy any parameters which would confine them to mere words.

There's a lot more information out there now then there was in 2010 when I only had the cached remnants of Graham Ledgerwood's old website to see that someone else had what appeared to be a similar type of rabbit hole experience. Add the late author Philip K. Dick to that list.  Wonderful story there, although I'm sure for PKD at the time, it was indeed terrifying, as it was at times for me. I have even since spoken with an old friend from over twenty years ago who had a very similar experience.  She referred to what happened to her as an Akashic Download, and unlike my month-plus journey, hers lasted over a year.

If a new blog emerges, I'll post a link here.  I may even post here again. It's hard to say right now.  A lot of my spare time of late is being spent on a new project called Kuriosa33 with some friends.  We're focusing on creating art with vibrational intention as part of the art's creation.  The intention embedded in the art is that it can be used as a portal for astral travel, OBEs and lucid dreaming.  Most of what we've been working on is still on the drawing board and will require a lot of experimentation. Currently, some of the wrapped canvas wall art that we've created can be found on Zazzle and soon to be on another site in different configurations, sometime in the coming months.

Quite a bit of strange experiences began for me in late 2007, about a year after I created this blog to talk about my virtual reality experiences, which, it turned out, were so amazing and ongoing that I never had the time to write about them.  After I began to notice the seemingly strange nature of real life events happening around me in late 2007, I turned the blog's attention to those types of matters.  What was happening to me at that time caused me to question the nature of reality more than ever before.  Eight years later, I've had an array of beautiful, consciousness-related experiences that have helped me to sharpen my focus and raise my vibrational energies. One of the most important things that I've learned over this time is that all answers lie within.  Internal work on ourselves is paramount to helping the world as a whole.

Over the past twenty years or so, maybe as far back as 1987, something in the world shifted/changed.  Since then, it has appeared that we as a race of sentient beings are on some kind of crazy train to annihilate ourselves and the rest of life of the planet.  I've felt that part of my awakening experience has been strongly rooted in the fact that the world as we now know it is perhaps the opposite of how it should be on many levels.  I believe that the planet, like everything else around us (matter = energy), is energy, and therefore, in some sense, alive. The spirit of the planet, the goddess or whatever you want to call her, appears to be calling out for humanity to ascend to a higher vibrational level of consciousness.  The rub there is that doing so runs contrary to the programmed nature of our societies.

As I wrote about back in early 2010 or so while in the rabbit hole, I was presented with a mind's-eye video of the planet morphing or splitting into two distinct planets, and yet the average person on either side of the split would not sense that anything was happening.  "Raise your vibration" was a phrase that was running over and over in my mind.  At the time, completely overwhelmed by that and all of the other information that was flooding in, I thought perhaps it was happening in real time.  Some time after the rabbit hole experience, I came across the late Dolores Cannon speaking about the same planet-morphing phenomenon and found the measure of coincidence to be extremely interesting.  I had gotten the same informatoin from the aether while down the rabbit hole.  Whatever I was connected to at that time flooded me with information, including destruction as far as the eye could see and masses of poor refugees, and yet there was no underlying context for me to interpret what I was being shown, which left me with endless questions.

There's an inspiring video (below) of Russell Brand talking about where he senses humanity is on a grand linear timeline.  Yes, he's somewhat of a controvertial figure and not everyone's cup of tea, but I believe he totally nails it in this montage of several of his speaking engagements.  I suppose it's fitting that I embed that below, since it gives me hope to hear someone of note, with access to mass media, speak this way.  Going back five or six years, I knew who he was, but that was about it.  One day on the way back from the beach, I was listening to Elvis Mitchell's The Treatment on NPR, and tuned in past the guest's intro, so I didn't know who the interviewee was until the end of the show.  "Who is this guy?  He's dropping some knowledge,"  I thought as I listened intently.  I just love the fact that there is someone in the mainstream culture speaking about life on earth this way.  I have a group of close friends that I see often, and when we get together, we talk about precisely what Russell talks about in the montage.


Several years ago (also written about here), I had an experience whereby I literally appeared to have projected my consciousness into another physical dimension.  It had taken me nine months of attempts (not really knowning what I was attempting), with pranayama and lucid dreaming exercises nearly every day and night during that time.  What I learned duing the projection was that my consciousness, as far as I could determine, projected into one painting in the waking world, only to project through another painting in an alternate reality.  That experience was separate from the aforementioned rabbit hole thing. 

Both of those experiences led to the desire to create meditative art with the intention of the art serving as a portal for consciousness projection.  Any image can be used for projection.  This is just something that we're experimenting with as we tinker with ideas along these lines.  Some of the art reminds me a little of the Wingmakers cave paintings at Ancient Arrow.  As I recall from my reading of their materials, time travel through paintings was mentioned at least twice.

Below is a recent (long) promo video for the online store.  It's still being built out and is far from finished.  Our hope is to soon begin working with crystals, frequencies and vibration, incorporating more multimedia projects and realized experiments in the coming months.

Thanks for the comments and to those who wrote to me sharing their experiences.  I hoped that some of what I wrote might help or inspire people.  On one level I regret coming back to the blog with an update including a commerce-related post, but it's what I'm doing in my spare time at the moment.  As I've said before, universe/multiverse isn't trying to sell us anything.  The energy from All That Is comes to each of us as differently as snowflakes or sand granuals on a beach are each uniquee.  Each person's experience is different, as it should be.  At the same time, some of us have begun to see that the multiverse is not as it might appear [Hint: it's all a hologram, including our minds].  We sense that the veil that separates us from the many surrounding realities has begun to thin.  As it thins, we want to take advatange of journeying into some of these other realities.  Everything is energy.  Everything is data.  Peace.

New Experience - A Dream Burst

About a week ago, I had a particular dream experience stands out as virtually unique on a few different levels, enough that I thought it was worth sharing here.  I had been using a technique for lucid dreaming that a friend came across in Malcolm Godwin's book, "The Lucid Dreamer" and shared with me a couple of weeks ago.  The technique involves affirmations before falling asleep whereby one attempts to creates queues within the physical world that activate lucidity within the dreamworld.  Around the same time, I also began a daily ritual of Pranayama Breathing in an attempt to have another kundalini experience.  I began both of the techniques in order to reconnect with the expansive cosmic energy forces that dominated my physical world for an extended period a little over a year ago.  I have been seeking answers and direction for my life for some time, and have become somewhat frustrated that no apparent solutions have come forth.  Yet last week, I had a peculiar experience that I've come to describe as a "Dream Burst."  Dream Burst is the best way that I can describe the experience.

I doubt that the pranayama breathing or the lucid dreaming techniques had anything to do with the "Dream Burst," since I had only been doing both for two days at that point and have not had any type of similar experience in the seven or so days since.  After it happened, I was fumbling for the notebook that I keep close to my bed, repeating the term "Dream Burst" over and over so that I wouldn't forget the description of this expansive experience that came to me within the dream.  This occurred in the early afternoon while I had taken a short nap.  I was asleep for maybe forty-five minutes in total, and the "Dream Burst" lasted approximately four or five minutes in total at the very end of the nap.  I had begun to dream, and in my dream I was seated at a table, actually more like a bar, within a residence of some kind that appeared to be on a tropical island.

It was a beautiful tropical home, like a well-thatched hut of some kind that had windows but no glass panes.  The window areas had door-like hatches that were open and secured to the ceiling of the hut.  There was also an open door toward the end of the bar beyond which I could see palm trees.  I remember feeling the tropical breezes as I sat at on a chair at the bar with several pieces of paper in front of me and a pen or pencil in my hand.  I was writing, attempting to sort out some kind of list.  As I sat and wrote, I realized that I had become lucid within the dream and immediately began to try and determine what it was that I was writing.  Just then, as I found myself aware and attempted to focus on what was on the papers scattered in front of me, something unseen spoke to me within my mind, saying, "You are trying to remember something in your life right now.  What you are trying to remember is what it's like to be formless.  It feels like this - Remember?"

Just then, my entire energy field lit up as if I was a "sparkler," which is what we in the US call a hand-held child's firework that is often seen on Independence Day.  It was intense and I vibrated wildly.  The feeling was similar to the best astral travel experience that I could recall, yet quite different.  My entire energy field felt spherical, and I found myself floating in the air above the chair and bar, completely enveloped in pure bliss.  I didn't want it to stop.  I immediately started saying, "I surrender!  I surrender!" as I was floating gently upward very slowly.  Although it brought to mind feelings similar to some excellent astral travel / obe experiences of the past, this was something entirely new for me.  I can't recall ever having something unseen in a dream speak to me within my dreaming mind.  It felt as if I had been shot out of a slow motion flare gun, and just like a flare, I felt as if I was glowing and drifting over the landscape.  I became aware of my etheric or energy body, and it felt as if my arms and legs were stretched out wide and I was in a kind of blissful state of suspended animation.

I tried desperately to gauge and quantify the experience.  Since I couldn't recall ever having something speak to me within my mind during a dream, I tried to focus on the identity of what it was that had spoken to me.  Usually it's people or animal forms of some kind.  Once I was "lit up," I didn't sense any type of entity or energy form near me.  All I wanted to do was to perpetuate the experience and try to use the state to transit into another realm.  I felt like that was possible, yet as much as I tried, I couldn't seem to direct myself anywhere.  I just felt like a bubble floating on a breeze.  The next thing that I noticed was that I could still feel myself sitting at the bar, and the identification with the two body positions - floating bubble and seated on a chair - seemed to go back and forth in milliseconds, as if I was experiencing bi-location simultaneously.  I had experienced similar bi-location events in dreams before, but not like this.  As awareness of those two states shifted back and forth quickly, I began to experience a third state; tri-location.  To my amazement, the third state of awareness was of being in my bed in the physical world, in a completely different position (lying on my side with both arms near my chest).  As I alternated between the awareness of the three different positions or states, I realized that I was awake in my bed.
 
I kept my eyes closed and tried with great effort to focus myself entirely on the blissful sphere state, but to no avail.  The two dream states faded very slowly, with the buzzing and vibrating of the blissful state slowly lowering in intensity as I became more and more aware of the singular state of lying in my physical bed.  Although I was initially disappointed that I couldn't seem to maintain either the tri-location or shift awareness completely into the blissful floating bubble, I was impressed.  The intensity was unlike anything I had experienced in the dream state in many years, if ever.  I didn't move my physical body for several minutes, attempting to shift myself back into the dream, but it didn't work.  When I finally got up, I thanked my higher self, source energy and whatever energy that had initiated the experience within my dream, as I had no baring on who or what that energy form was that had spoken to me.  About an hour after the experience, I happened to be walking into my bedroom when I saw purple-blue orbs spiraling around the perimeter of my room near the ceiling.  They lasted for about three or four seconds.  Although I do see orbs and flashing blue-white lights from time to time, these orbs were different and that was another first for me.  I laughed and thanked them, whatever they were or represented, for the little show they provided, and welcomed them to return any time they wished.

It's been about a week now since this took place.  I have continued with the pranayama breathing twice a day, and I've used the lucid dreaming technique every time before entering sleep, but have had no experience even remotely similar since that time.  As I face a continually mounting set of physical life survival problems, it perplexes me that I can't seem to find opportunities or manifest changes that will avert what appears to be my upcoming loss of a residence and financial solvency.  "Why this, then?"  I have wondered for the past week.  "Why are there no answers and no clear path for me at this time?"  I still feel that I'm in some kind of spiritual holding pattern, which has been going on for the past eighteen months.  I feel as though I have a lot to give, a lot to contribute, and although I have been focusing on the little things that I am able to do in my life and living from a heart-centered place, helping people when and where I can, I still feel somewhat adrift in a silent sea, waiting for strong sailing winds to blow and take me to my next destination.  I suppose it's somewhat ironic, and in the end I have to do what I have been doing, which is surrendering to what is, despite my efforts to change my situation.

My hope is that somewhere down the line in the future this experience is given perspective, or it returns within a greater context of some kind, so that I can use it to help others and gain further useful insights.  As of today, this remains the most intense experience since my cosmic initiation period over a year ago, however short and fleeting as this Dream Burst was.  Formlessness is great, no doubt about it.  And if said formlessness means being within a bubble of pure bliss, I'm all for it, but unless it's something that I can learn to activate at will, my physical efforts of survival seem to be way too daunting to overcome at this time.  Within my efforts to rationalize the Dream Burst, my thoughts turn to where we are within the Mayan Dreamspell calendar, and I find myself wondering if this state of being is some kind of preview of gifts that are soon to be realized.  My left-brain obviously thinks that's pretty silly, and that I'm hoping against hope, but in the end, I have to think that the sum-total of my spiritual experiences are leading to something, and that "something," whatever it is, has to do with my personal growth, ascension and evolution.  When I read articles such as this one from Szuson Wong, which was recently posted on various websites and blogs over the past week, it gives me hope - hope that maybe we really are on the verge of some exciting events whereby those of us who are attuned to higher frequencies do find ourselves transforming into higher dimensions of reality.

Peace ; )

Best Astral Travel Technique Ever

I have been trying to increase the frequency and "at will" factor in my OBEs.  Sometimes I'll get so relaxed I'll fall asleep.  Other times I'll just end up in a meditative state without the initiation of an out-of-body experience.  I have been actively pursuing what I once had down to a bit more of a science when I was younger.  Although the frequency of my OBEs has increased during the couple of years or so, I recently came across this technique at World of Lucid Dreaming and I've found it extremely helpful, called "Stop, Drop & Roll". 

This is one of the best techniques I've found to date, and I've read a few books on the subject.  At the essence of the technique are steps needed to be taken to trick the physical body into sleep paralysis.  The missing key for me was the resistance of what are known as urges that the body uses to make sure the mind is asleep before initiating sleep paralysis in order to enter the dream state.  I've had a breakthrough the first couple of times that I used this, most notably resisting what is known as the roll-over urge.  My energy/astral body has turned on relatively quickly within thirty minutes while I've remained awake.  Remaining awake - the mind - and avoiding this urges that trigger sleep paralysis, has been much more effective than relaxation techniques and visualizations alone.