A Fascinatingly Disturbing Thought

Astrophysicist Neil Degrasse Tyson: "A fascinatingly disturbing thought."  Neil is one of the most exciting, intelligent, vibrant personalities in science today.  I could listen to him for hours, and have on several occasions.  His mission to bring a greater understanding of science and its importance to the survival of humanity to the public at large is a noble endeavor.  In this excerpt below, Neil once again gets everyone's wheels spinning with a reality check of sorts regarding our place in the universe, or multiverse.

Denny Smith Interviews Clif High & Clif's Grunch Warning

Below is a two-part interview that Clif High did with Denny Smith on WIBC Radio on September 30th, 2011.  Denny conducts a very professional interview, and unlike many recent interviews with Clif, this one provides some interesting back-story regarding the development of his Web Bot technology.  I listened to the interview a couple of times over the past few days, and was very surprised to find a new post on Half Past Human this morning regarding the Web Bot's latest findings and consequently what Clif believes could be coming over the next few weeks, which for the most part is not discussed in the Denny Smith interview.  Clif even gives a tip of the hat to Carl Calleman, who has studied the Mayan long-count calendar.

Denny Smith Interviews Clif High Pt 1, 9/30/2011

Denny Smith Interviews Clif High Pt 2, 9/30/2011

The following text below is a portion of Clif's latest posting on the Half Past Human website.  He appears to have a certain degree of, I don't know if confidence is the right word, perhaps  - a strong impression based on what his latest data points to - might be a better choice of words, regarding events in the near future.  I don't recall seeing him articulate Web Bot findings with such passion on a short timetable (next few weeks) before, but I've only been keeping tabs on him for the past two years.  It's interesting.  We'll know in a month or two if he's on to something.  Hopefully Clif will be doing more interviews soon.

I have been watching the Occupy Wall Street and other protests carefully.  I do find it interesting that, much like the beginning of the Mayan Ninth Wave with Mubarak defying the people one evening only to emerge the next morning and agree to leave, that within three weeks we reach the end of the cycle and now after many months, more protests have started in addition to those in many countries around the world?  Is this the beginning of something that will lead to quantifiable change or will things go back to business as usual in the coming weeks?  I remain neutral, even at this late date, however, I have set my intention for the highest and best good of all sentient beings, no matter what happens or doesn't happen.


Clif High - October 2011:

"Funeral for a Zombie...

Yo, Grunch just ahead!

Employing the word as his hero, Buckminster Fuller, Raven is busily warning, "Yo, Grunch just ahead!!!".

In this next 'tranche' (french word appropriated by banksters that means 'slice' which is what they are doing to all of us), the Giants of Our Age, which includes what i have labeled as Civilization 1/One (which makes us regular terrestrial humans civilization 0/zero), will be out for the Big Score with this next mega theft of resources (in the form of currency) from the global financial system.

In the mind control theater that was 911, the theft of 2.3 trillion dollars was covered up. In the 'financial crisis' of October 2008, there was over 6 trillion dollars sucked out of the planetary wealth. It is my expectation, that the next big score is targeting nearly 16 trillion of the new dollars that Ben (enemy of humanity) Bernanke has just created out of nothing. While it is factual that Bogus Ben Bernanke's bucks have absolutely NO value and are ephemeral at best, he has yet instantly obligated all of the USofA inhabitants to back his illusionary currency with their very real suffering and slavery.

This next Looting Frenzy will erupt within these upcoming few weeks, will last mere hours, but is intended by the giants (= entrenched powers = minions of the banksters) to affect us all for generations. Oh, and they are actively working to kill off most of us (What? You thought Fukashima earthquake,tsunami, and nuke disaster were 'natural'?), and to enslave those of your children that they 'allow' to survive.

These are not regular humans. These are psychopath beings who are so mentally ill as to be a danger to us all. The thinking individual need only examine their edifices, the corporations, and the resulting impact on our homeworld to know these perverted, twisted beings at their core (note, no heart, just a hole).

These are not regular humans. These are psychopath beings who are a danger to us all.

These are not regular humans. These are psychopath beings who are going to crash the planetary (mostly USofA/UK/EU centered) financial system over these next few weeks. Our data suggests that the most likely target date will be October 17th (a Monday), after very shocking developments emerge on October 15th.

The reasons, and goals of the psychopath masters of the banksters and political/military minion classes are not of concern at this moment in the process. We leave such examinations for the show trials of the survivors of the psychopath class later this decade. What is our concern is the immediacy of this pending event.

Wrap your head around the idea: the planetary financial system is collapsing now. The collapse was initiated a long time ago, and cannot be averted by anything that may be done at this point in the process of it falling over dead.

It is also important to note that the collapse of the financial/banking system MUST happen and further is a GOOD thing for most humans albeit on the other side of the suffering that is attendant to the process of this global death. We MUST grieve, but we must also BURY this stinking corpse as it is rotting of corruption!

So, let it die. We will rebuild. Note this. WE will rebuild....not they, the banksters, but we, the humans of earth.

But first, we have a funeral to attend. They, the banksters, and minions, have killed off the banking system. We note that already (October 8, 2011) the rumors of THE derivative swap cotango contagion are eroding 'confidence' in these 'trickster notes' globally. By the 15th of the month when our forecast shows a very sharp and sudden switch to release language that lasts but short days, the poison in the veins of the system should be clear to all. That is when we will all, like it or not, protest or not, be participating in the FUNERAL of the Zombie (planetary) Central Banking system...

[READ MORE at HALF PAST HUMAN]

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~ Namaste ~ 

The Way Of Waking Up - Alan Watts

It's been many weeks since my last post.  A lot has changed in my personal life since mid-June.  As I have mentioned previously, I entered a Dark Night of the Soul experience precisely around this time in 2009.  Since then, several profound events have taken place in my life.  My awareness, perceptions and my mosaic - or reality tunnel - the way in which I experience the physical world - have changed forever as a result.  I found it curious that the aforementioned consciousness-related events occurred during a time when it appeared that everything I had known, built and established in my life continued to crumble around me.  In April, despite my continuing slide, I began to get a sense that the Dark Night had lifted and passed.  This was difficult to quantify, primarily because I found myself adrift in a wake of ever-compounding problems that had compromised my ability to survive and maintain even a simple life.

By mid-June of this year, I was prepared for the worst, and was expecting to file for bankruptcy at the end of July.  Despite all of my best efforts, long hours and such with two businesses, the overall financial climate had destroyed virtually everything that I had carefully worked to build over the last seven years.  I thought at times that there was no hope, and had ultimately surrendered to the universe, ready to face the prospect of homelessness and continuously snowballing fiscal problems.  As far as I was concerned, the 11th hour had come and gone sometime back in 2010, and I was managing to hold on to shelter and stability by a single thread.  What was the lesson in all of this - the spiritual experiences, the disintegration of everything I'd come to rely upon (?)  And why was all of this happening?  I can't say.  I can only reflect upon what appeared to be opportunities for learning, growth and expansion.

Surrender, trust and compassion appeared to be underlying themes.  I felt as if part of what I was supposed to learn from the lessons of the past two years was that no matter how dark, how seemingly hopeless things were to get, it was my decision to either accept things as they are/were... or not.  I tried to stay focused on the fact that there is wisdom in uncertainty.  It was either that or let myself become overwhelmed with fear.  There were times when the latter would dominate my awareness for a day or two at a time.  Sometimes I would just sit with fear and feel it as much as I could, imagining the worst tangents possible, so as to illuminate and get to the root of the fear, similar to the Sedona Method.  This can be extremely difficult when you are at the end of your rope, consumed with thoughts of survival.  By mid-June I had given up on many levels.  I felt I had given my best efforts to maintaining the foundation of a somewhat stable life.  I worked through the dark time despite being unemployed, typically on consulting and spec projects, none of which produced any real income.  Things just appeared to worsen steadily.  My computers had all died, my vehicle was compromised and I was about to lose my home, in addition to the development of various health problems.

Then, one evening in mid-June, I received an intuitive hit regarding a potential gig that I had heard about through a friend who had been trying to get me a job where he was working.  I reached out to him, acting upon the intuitive hit alone and told him, "I'm sensing that next week there might be some kind of opportunity that comes about whereby I might get hired for a specific task based upon a new need of the company in question.  If so, please think of me.  I'll take any kind of work."  This was very humbling to me, someone who has always been entrepreneurial, working multiple jobs at once in addition to my creative pursuits.  But the last two years had been humbling and then some, leaving me at a point where I would jump on any type of lead, any possibility, even if it arrived via a seemingly random thought out of the blue.  To this great friend I say thank you.  You saved my life.  To the universe I say thank you as well for the gentle intuitive prompting of possibility as it appeared within my conscious awareness.  I'm grateful that I had the necessary mindfulness to act upon the intuition.

I began working for the same company at the end of June.  I love the offices, the vibe and the people with whom I work.  On many levels, I couldn't be happier.  My 3D background should serve me well with this job.  The slide has now stopped and a sense of stability has returned, enabling me to begin to repair a very complex life situation.  At the last moment, just when I thought I was headed for what I thought would be a murky life on the road, the universe stepped in and snatched me from falling.  I am forever thankful.  Although I was prepared for the worst, I had thrown in the towel and surrendered to whatever I was to be coming my way.  Perhaps it was through that surrender that I was able to get to this place.  I was afraid to surrender for a long time.  I'm a fighter, independent, and an autodidact.  Yet I was brought to a point where I had to yield to uncertainty and I had to remain completely open... open to surrender and whatever each day would bring, despite feeling as though I was standing at the edge of a tall cliff and could fall at any moment.

Miracles do happen.  I am proof of that.  And on that note, I leave you with another excerpt from the late Alan Watts in a short video called, "The Way Of Waking Up."  Alan was a brilliant man and an engaging philosopher.  I also find his signature laugh to be intriguing, especially in light of the topics that he explored with tremendous insight.  There is something in that laugh and there is magic in his words, which are alive with the beauty and wonder of the universe.  When I viewed this video for the fist time, it left me with a curious boost in awareness, one that was similar to the lift that I got from reading "Science of Being."  It gave me goosebumps.  It's a seven-minute-plus "Aha" moment.  Enjoy.  I hope to return to posting more regularly here, and wish peace and happiness to all who read these words. 

A Most Incredible Book: Science Of Being

Several days ago, a friend told me about a book called "Science of Being" by Eugene Fersen.  I read it the following night and I am in the process of reading it again.  Similar to The Kybalion in terms of exploring Hermetic Laws (Universal Laws) and their applications, I found it difficult to stop reading.  It's a milestone book for me.  Within its pages are powerful truths - secrets of the universe - which are expressed in a thoughtful and eloquent way.  Wonder abounds.  The way in which the material is explored and the information presented is methodical and easy to understand, complete with lesson reviews at the end of each of the book's seven lessons.  Practical application of the truths contained is also presented, as if the book was written with intention, personally for a friend.

Despite one's belief system, combinations or lack thereof, the author expresses fundamental universal truths in such a way that the overall teachings transcend any one particular spiritual discipline, and rightly so, just as a return to complete unity with Source or All That Is is beyond any belief system.  As penetrating as the material is, the underlying simplicity of the nature of the Universal Laws and their application is beauty in itself.  Not to negate faith in any way, but there is nothing to believe per se within the book, rather, to understand or "innerstand."

Conscious realization of The All is explored, as is vibration, emotions and how to simply focus Primal Energy that is flowing all around and through us constantly.  There are profound answers to questions that have obsessed and troubled humankind for thousands of years... why we're here, what it is we have to learn and how to practice same in order to ultimately unite once again in spirit with All That Is.  Anyone who is practicing raising their vibration and maintaining same in daily life knows that mindfulness is key to such practice.  This book gave me a nice, gentle boost in terms of mindfulness that I had not had prior to reading it.  It's just a couple of thoughts and a pause when the thoughts bubble up, but it has been recurring nicely at a frequency that causes me to connect with it many more times per day.

Also found within the book is a rather detailed description of the Great Fall from "Heaven," which eventually led to the world we find ourselves in today.  Despite years of theological studies in earlier years, this was a story that I had always wanted to hear in detail, and which is not found in modern Christian scripture to any extent, similar to details about what is only a fleeting mention within the Bible's Book of Genesis of the "Great Men of long ago," referring to angels taking human partners.  If that did happen, two different spiritual forms merging, in essence, it would be news or at least written about for future generations.  From my time reading about the Fall and the Great Men as a child, it had bothered me that such grand stories were not preserved in detail for everyone.

Reading about the Great Fall here aroused old suspicions that many of the older spiritual texts and contemporary translations we have today have been truncated, edited and censored, in order perpetuate control.  Imagine, for example, that the Star Wars trilogy was in fact a history of some species in a distant star system.  Technically, it was written based on the great myths of our planet, but let's just say for a moment that it took place somewhere.  Why would anyone reduce the story to a paragraph or two within widely available so-called holy books unless there was some agenda there?  I doubt anyone could begin to transfer the grand spectacle of a story so full of awe and wonder into a couple of paragraphs.

Source, All That Is, is revealed in a unique light in the story of the Great Fall and throughout the book, transcending any dogmatic boundaries with immeasurable love.  Fascinating.  Another mind-blowing element for me was the nature of Love versus Mind, embodied / personified in the Christ versus Luciferian energies in the Christian traditions.  During my Cosmic Initiation many months ago, this constant struggle and the need to overcome same was a central theme that I was shown from Source throughout the intense time, including the elements of falling due to mind (ego) in an historical sense, karma wheels created hence, spiritual warfare and Love's innate quality of just "being" that transcends Mind.  I believe that any seeker who reads this book with an open mind will find many treasures within its pages that they can take forward, providing perspective on life as well as methods to cultivate and maintain simple mindfulness that can lead to greater realization(s).

Born into Russian royalty, Baron Eugene Alexandrovich Fersen,wrote the book in 1923. The first run was printed in gold ink, which is made from gold leaf and honey.  It has been said that the original copies are embedded with magnetic healing vibrations by the author, who crafted the original books himself.  I've heard from the person who turned me on to the book that copies of the original printing have sold on Ebay for over $3000.  Fersen eventually moved to the United States and founded The Lightbearers Organization.  During his lifetime, he was associated with many of the world's most eminent teachers, scientists and philosophers.  You can read more about his life story on the Science of Being website.  The book, "Science of Being," is available through the same website as a PDF download for $12.98.

*photo from Science of Being [dot] com

~ Namaste. ~

Unity Consciousness, Meditation And Diamond Alignment

There are many websites that have arisen over the past few years that offer group meditations focusing on unity consciousness, and their numbers appear to be growing.  The WingMakers have an excellent site called Event Temples, where you can simply register for free with an email address and join others around the globe at various designated times daily to focus intention on heart-centered consciousness, thereby enhancing the energy field of the consciousness grid that surrounds the earth through your heart and your own life energy.  Drunvalo Melchizedek has written about the new grid in his book, "Serpent of Light: Beyond 2012", and has discussed the subject in various videos available on YouTube, some of which are posted on this blog.  Another excellent free website that I have recently come across is Diamond Alignment, which is operated by Jacqueline Joy.  The site offers personal, six-minute energy-infused meditation sessions to help align oneself with divine Source energy and the unity, love or diamond consciousness.  I really enjoyed the Diamond Alignment meditation and intend to be visiting there regularly along with Event Temples.  It's open and free 24/7/365.  To access the six-minute meditation page, just click "enter" on the main page and "enter" again on the next page that pops up.  And finally there is Fractal Energy Mandala, which is different than the first two sites and doesn't have a meditation area per se, but features the inspiring artwork of K. Allen Kay, which consists of beautiful, captivating mandalas that he has created intuitively.  You can order your own personalized mandala video through his site.

Why is something like this important?  There are likely several reasons.  First, the fact that the earth's kundalini force, or spirit / soul energy has moved within the past several years from the mountains of Tibet to a place in the mountains of Peru, indicating the that the dawn of a new cycle in the evolution of human, planetary and universal consciousness is near.  This event happens approximately every 13,000 years, according to the wisdom of various indigenous peoples and tribes around the world.  As Drunvalo has explained it (discussed in a recent video that I posted on this blog), the earth's kundalini (spirit energy) has since been activated in its new Peruvian home through a series of ceremonies in which he participated, the purpose of which was to initiate the kundalini from its new home within the earth to expand outward and ultimately form the new consciousness grid that surrounds our planet.  This is the grid that will essentially govern the coming new era in history, and which will bring about the evolutionary change of Mother Earth herself, along with all things upon, within and around her.

Second, this new era is said to be one of conscious co-creation.  If a planet-wide or universal shift in consciousness is going to occur and it is potentially part of our evolution as humans, then it seems to be a very important matter.  Becoming one with the new consciousness grid means being centered in one's heart; living from the heart.  In doing so, we become aligned with higher vibrational realities, higher dimensions, where we become one with Source energy in conscious co-creation from a place of unconditional love.  If love is the ultimate truth of the universe and the force which governs all of creation, is connecting with this Source energy simply a realization of truth?  It would stand to reason then, that the amount of people who become connected to this new level of consciousness through a realization of ultimate truth will likely be key to the pervasiveness of the grid itself, thereby enhancing or expanding the ability for more people to become aware that these higher vibrational realities exist.  Through such enhancement or magnification, our necessity as a race to shift our awareness into alignment with such a grid should become apparent to an increasing number of people, ensuring not only our survival, but our own evolution as a species.  So where is the tipping point?

I personally don't anticipate that it will take the whole population of 7 billion people to bring about this shift of consciousness.  I have a distinct impression that such a shift in awareness can grow from a few into many and at a certain point, become somewhat contagious, for lack of a better word.  "Catch a fire," as the late great Bob Marley would say.  Consider first that the mineral, plant and animal kingdoms are already one with Mother Earth and Source energy.  That leaves us humans, the most advanced life forms on the planet, to attune ourselves to this new consciousness and thus facilitate the evolution of our consciousness as the earth herself evolves.  As Drunvalo has stated, this would happen whether we were here or not, as it is part of the earth's and the universe's evolution - knowledge that has been known and kept by many indigenous tribes around the world for thousands of years.  The importance of "making the shift" into higher vibrations of consciousness has to do with not having to return and incarnate and repeat another 13,000 year cycle of birth and death at this particular strata of consciousness, which has been dominated by male energy alone.  Thankfully, if he's correct, that 13,000 years is only a tiny portion of the total of cycles of the Mayan Calendar, but still, who would want to go backward?  Perhaps some.  Definitely not me.  My recent four year run of living and creating in virtual reality simulators alone has awakened a part of me that's ready to return to my abilities of flight, teleportation between dimensions and existence in complete peace.

When we look at the current condition of the human race and the ongoing destruction of the planet, I believe it's important to consider that it likely won't take all of us being in tune with the new unity consciousness to enable others of our species to make the shift into that awareness, and here's why:  Consider the Hundredth Monkey Effect, around which there has been much controversy.  I disagree with the assertions on Wikipedia regarding the Effect being simply applicable to mythological New Agers, of which I am not a part.  The fact that many in New Age circles have incorporated said Effect into their teachings only serves to make it an easy target of enhanced negativity, as there are many memes within and about that community that are purely conjecture and hyperbole, whatever the "movement's" nebulous borders might be.  To my knowledge, since the writings about the discovery of the Hundredth Monkey phenomenon in 1952, no conclusive scientific studies have been done to substantiate the effect as factual, or at least have been made public knowledge.  That's okay.  There are other places in which to look for signs that something similar could take place within the world's population.

I also should note here that I often stand with The Skeptics Society on many issues such as this, and I look for scientific explanations for unproven phenomena, however, I have seen hours of behavioral studies on both humans and animals that indicate that this type of effect is entirely plausible:  that after a certain key number within a group adapts an awareness or behavior, that (variable) number being critical in ratio to the sum of a larger group (in highly evolved life forms such as apes and/or humans), many others will follow or adopt the new knowledge or awareness and the resultant growing awareness will eventually permeate the behavior of a majority of the group as a whole.  I think that this is possible because of what I have studied and observed myself within the fields of advertising and the arts.  I have also seen and experienced many things during this incarnation that I do not understand, some of which I have written about on this blog.  These things have no scientific explanation, no control-based studies, and I am left only trying to find context for the experiences, futile as that often appears to be.  However, if we are indeed currently being guided by energy forms or entities that reside within higher realms of consciousness, hence, new frequencies of awareness are actually being directed into our three dimensional world at this time, then the entire idea becomes even more plausible and perhaps even likely from my current perspective.

There are also some interesting observations that I have made considering The Solomon Asch Conformity Experiment, as one example, which deals with perception, human behavior, conditional judgment and peer pressure.  I should discern here that I don't believe any alignment with unity consciousness will come about - or could come about - through coercion.  Unity consciousness, or love, by its very nature is unconditional, and could not be attained by such means, since we must make a choice to connect in that way, with love and through surrender, from our hearts.  Consequently, I do believe that if enough people become a part of a new awareness or higher consciousness vibration, that it will lead to an "Aha Moment" and a tipping point for others.  If the ancients are correct, as has been written about and handed down for thousands of years through many of the indigenous tribes around the world, higher levels of consciousness and the attainment thereof should be encoded somewhere within our DNA, at the very least as a dormant yet present sense of an awareness of something greater than ourselves.

Sometimes I wonder, if that is indeed true, that such types of ancient knowledge actually resides somewhere within elements of our long-dormant, docile or inactive DNA.  Since most of our civilized world is cut off from the ancient wisdom, the hidden knowledge and the practices associated with connecting to higher realms, is that why we have created what we know today as organized religion (?)  To me, the concept of organized religion is multi-headed creature of endless divisions which almost always points people outside of themselves for salvation, and instead to so-called holy people, organizations and higher orders of alleged gatekeepers to the Creator or Source.  It's been my experience that nearly all of these institutions use fear-based methods to grow and maintain their followers - through the constant siphoning of money from their flocks.  To quote the late great George Carlin on the "man in the sky" version of God, "He's all-powerful, all-perfect, all-knowing and all wise - but somehow - just can't handle money."  Carlin was a brilliant man and one of the greatest thinkers of the past century.  Religions point us outside of ourselves.  Unity consciousness points us within.  The difference between the two (looking outside or looking within) has to do with taking the responsibility for ourselves, of sorting out our inner homes, our hearts, remembering that we are sparks of a divine energy that gives us our every breath and that the same energy wants us to become one with it again in a personal way that is unique to each one of us.

There's a big difference between going within for transformation and looking to lay it all on some "guy in the sky" and letting "him" figure it out, as many within the organized christian churches see it.  I do believe, as Jesus of Nazareth said in John 14:6: "I am the way, the truth and the life.  No man cometh unto the Father but by me."  However, I believe that the churches of the world have twisted the accurate translation, like many other parts of scripture.  What I believe Jesus was saying was, that there is no way to connect to the "Father" universal Creator Consciousness unless you have the Christ Consciousness of unconditional love, or unity with all things.  That unity starts within one's own individual heart space.  There is no other place from which we can attain that unity with Source energy.  Some within the circles of organized religion would term that kind of thinking blasphemous.  In my younger years, within the confines of my inherited belief system, I would probably have agreed.  But consider the source when looking at the organized, for-profit religious "businesses" that would make such accusations.  As I have stated in previous posts, anything or anyone that points you outside of yourself for salvation, at least in my opinion, is suspect, because in doing so you abdicate responsibility for the affairs of your own heart, which is ultimately the place from which all of our creations flow and is our place of connection to the wisdom that created us.

Having spent many years as a professional in marketing, primarily music, art and pop-culture arenas, I also find intriguing what has been described as the Hundredth Monkey Effect through a perspective provided by author Malcolm Gladwell, what he termed "social epidemics" in his brilliant book, "The Tipping Point" as well as what Saatchi & Saatchi CEO Kevin Roberts wrote about in his book, "Lovemarks".  If you've read those books, and have perhaps watched the Derek Sivers video that is in previous post below entitled, "How To Start A Movement", you can begin to see how Madison Avenue exploits certain elements of human nature to fuel the development of brand loyalty and further devotion to consumerism through the growth of movements.  All movements start with a single thought, and just like our thinking patterns, expand into thought strings and then systems of thought, which most often lead to physical action in the world around us.  That was my job, in various forms for over twenty years.  To identify, help create and enhance movements within the underground or counter-culture and bring them into the mainstream where they became known as trends.  Through those lenses and those of my experiences in brand-building, brand loyalty, and consumer behavior, I believe that there is something to be learned here in terms of how awareness-based movements within small groups can lead to adaptation by larger groups.  These movements are real phenomena, which initially activate something within some individual members of a group and grow with their own type of conscious awareness.  Such things are likely primal at their roots, and they're also likely have something to do with the expansion of conscious awareness and the fact that everything and everyone is ultimately connected.

In addition to years of acting training, I spent a couple of years studying at The Groundlings School of Improvisation in Los Angeles, where through many different types of exercises, I was shown how people can unite and connect around ideas, thoughts and concepts that are held within a portion of a group's consciousness without the entire group being told in advance what those ideas or concepts are.  Those types of exercises can appear to be magic to those who are new to observing the experience.  They give fascinating context for getting information "from the ether," as it were, through the very slightest of expression and observation only, and without any formal direction or explanation.  What one sees in those exercises is the power of Now within a collective or group of individuals.  In a larger context regarding acting and that craft, being in the Now can also produce what is known as "happy accidents," which can be profoundly mind-blowing when they occur.  Many great scenes in classic films became a part of the finished work through just those types of experiences... unscripted moments that just happened.  The late director Robert Altman was known to keep his camera rolling longer than many of his colleagues in order to catch such moments.  He was acutely aware of the potential of consciousness in the present moment and the wonders that it can produce.

At the same time, I'm also very anti-herd (or mob) mentality.  There are many examples throughout history where these same types of conscious actions through groups can have disastrous effects.  I've always been one who marches to the beat of a different drummer, and I avoid the herd / mob mentality almost every time that I see it appear, for better or for worse.  I've found it is in fact better to abstain from becoming a part of either a herd or a mob, whether it's at a party, a sporting event or people rushing to buy the latest gadget or brand.  Just like reactions to anger take time and should be thought-through, I use the same tactics for my approach to virtually any type of mentality like that of the herd.  The thing that makes unity consciousness different for me, though, is that it's love itself.  If there was ever a time to become more aware of being in the Now, in the present, and aligning oneself to a higher vibration of love, I believe that time is now.  In my relatively short time in this physical incarnation, I have seen the world change to the point where it isn't the same place in which I existed in my younger years, and it appears to be going in a direction that is unsustainable for both the earth itself and humanity.  I'm willing to be a part of this shift, this expansion of consciousness if and when what they call The Ninth Wave of Consciousness becomes evident within our field of perception.  For me, it can't arrive fast enough.  What else is there to look forward to in a larger sense?  More inflation, job scarcity, food shortages, disease, pollution, etc.  No thanks.  Something inside of me resonates with the vibration of "there has to be a better way" as I search for meaning in this world.

Below is an amusing video that I recently came across on YouTube.  One of the reasons that I found it amusing is that during my cosmic initiation period in late 2009 - early 2010, one of the things that Source energy clearly expressed to me while I was pondering how and why I could perceive that there was a veil over the earth, was this:  Our sun, viewed in the higher realms, looks more like a disco ball or crystal diamond sphere than the hot molten mass that we currently understand it to be.  As profound as that bit of information was, it has remained among several items that I have still not mentioned in my recent Recap or Bits & Pieces posts.  I had chosen not to include that bit of information about our sun, as I hadn't yet found any real context for it.  It would have just been a line like, "Oh, and by the way," so I left it out.  Upon seeing this video, I was immediately reminded of what I had been told during the initiation period, because now it has a bit more context for me.  It made me think about what I've described as "The Ripple" in a previous post, although this ripple took some time to reach me.






Is alignment with unity, love or diamond consciousness important?  I would say yes, since grounding oneself within one's heart, which is our sacred space, can only benefit the planet and all living things.  Is the number of people who are actively in tune with those higher vibrations, thus, have activated their merabah - the human light body - equally important?  I would say yes to that as well.  Where any potential tipping point could be is anyone's guess.  I've fiddled around with various equations using the circumference of the average merkabah and the total square feet of the earth's surface (for which the amount of total square feet numbers about 5.5 quadrillion), but I haven't come to any conclusions.  There are likely elements and variables to such an equation that I'm not aware of, the answers to which may only lie somewhere within the realms of higher consciousness.  Some say it will take 1/3 of the earth's population to reach a tipping point, which, with earth's current population at 7 billion, would be about 2.33 billion of us.  That's a profoundly large number of people, 1 billion more than the total population of China.  Whatever the number, it has to start somewhere, and if there is any element of expansive unity consciousness that is infectious by any means, then I am willing to invest time and my heart energy into helping to bring about its further manifestation.

All of this is exciting when we look at where we are right now in history, at the cusp of the  Universal Cycle of the Mayan Calendar, or the Ninth Wave of Consciousness as it has been called.  This cycle is supposed to bring with it an expansiveness and an ease that enables more people to become aware of higher vibrations of consciousness.  Some say this Ninth Wave begins on February 11th of this year.  Others say it will begin on March 9th, and with it will come the fastest pace of changes we as humans have ever experienced.  Each of the Mayan Calendar cycles is shorter than its predecessor.  The first, or Cellular Cycle, was 16.4 billion years long.  The latest and current Galactic Cycle was 11 years in duration.  In contrast, the Universal Cycle will be between 234 and 260 days long.  That means that each month will seem like a year in terms of our perceptions as we observe changes taking place around us, both good and bad, to apply earthly judgment to them.  This should be evident to nearly everyone on earth.  Time will soon tell all.  My hope is that we are truly on the cusp of the realization of a new era in consciousness.  Until then, we have tools from various teachers and websites that can help us connect to the consciousness grid through audio and video enhancements, like this video below of sacred geometries, set to ambient sounds from the late astral traveler and pioneer Robert Monroe's patented Hemi-Sync brainwave entrainment catalog.  This one is in HD and works well in full screen mode but may take a few moments to load.  Headphones are always best.

Namaste.

How To Start A Movement: Inspiration From Derek Sivers

I love the TED website.  TED features inspiring talks and presentations from some of the most innovative and forward-thinking people from around the globe.  It's an excellent place to visit when you're looking for stimulating ideas and provocative information.  Entrepreneur and CD Baby founder Derek Sivers' talk, "How To Start A Movement," from last year's conference is a brilliant exploration of how movements begin and grow.  Filmed in February of 2010 and posted to the TED website last April, Sivers examines how followers, especially the first follower, is just as influential and important to any movement as the leader or originator.  It is a simple, short and fascinating look at the concept of leadership and also a provocative examination of human behavior, presented in in less than four minutes.

Esquire Magazine once said of Sivers: "Derek Sivers is changing the way music is bought and sold.  A musician's savior.  One of the last music-business folk heroes."  Derek's CD Baby website was well known within the music community before the rise of iTunes, enabling independent musicians to sell their tangible pre-recorded music content directly to their customers without the need for a record label or brick and mortar retail store.  The magic and simplicity of "How To Start A Movement" is profound.  Derek's site and blog can be found here.

How To Start A Movement:

Derek's observations of human behavior and his ability to point out the need for us to continually challenge our perspectives is desperately needed in the world today.  The more people who can embrace this type of fresh thinking, the faster our world can change for the better.  Question everything, always and often.  The universe is infinite.  What we have been taught is never the only way in which things can exist, as demonstrated below in the differences between geospatial data and mapping in most of the western world when compared to Japan.

Weird, Or Just Different?:

Namaste.

Bits And Pieces - More Recollections And Convergences

I've felt compelled to write more over the past several weeks than probably any time over the past few years.  Consequently, my posts are getting longer and are becoming more in-depth.  Maybe it's because I don't have much else going on with my career right now or perhaps it's because I need to be able to view and contemplate what I've written for my own edification.  Regardless of the reason, it is in fact a good time for reflection and review of what has happened to me over the past year or so.  I have a real love / hate relationship with my writing, and like most of the other creative pursuits I've been involved in over the years, it either flows or it doesn't.  I'm very all-in or all-out in that kind of way, especially creatively.  But after years of editing myself, destroying a lot of of journals and paintings, I've just learned to release the impulse of judgment.  Things just are what they are.  If you create any type of expression, essentially you shouldn't judge it.  Once you do that, you're dead.  Creativity just flows.  Judgments cut off the flow.  I have one of my great acting teachers of the past to thank for that one.

Recently, I was reorganizing a lot of things in my apartment, including files on my computers, and I came across some more notes that I took during my time of Cosmic Initiation, which ran from November of 2009 well into January 2010, punctuated with several different types of experience during that span of time.  It went from what I felt was a surreal first four weeks, which included reading several books, among them Bruce Lipton's "The Biology of Belief", to my introduction to Paramahansa Yogananda's Lake Shrine to doing Debbie Ford's Shadow Work to reading Drunvalo Melchizedek's "Living in the Heart" and beginning the heart-centered meditation method contained therein, to pretty much going down the rabbit hole by the third week in December, which lasted well into January of last year.  New areas of perception and experience opened up to me that seemed to gather momentum as time went on.  When things like this occur in one's life, it's important to try and write everything down that you can.  Note taking, especially for the creative person, is key, and I have notebooks all over the place with ramblings here and there.  Ideas come and go from the ether all the time, and if you're not disciplined enough to write them down, many times they'll disappear for the most part, even if you've trained yourself to remember them later.

I started to become aware of the real value of keeping notes and journals during the mid 90s when I got into meditation, thanks in part to Julia Cameron's book, "The Artist's Way", which I read during that time.  I have been pleased to see similar thoughts echoed by Larry David and Jerry Seinfeld in the years since.  It's part of my mosaic now, the fact that creative ideas of all stripes come to us from the collective unconscious and from other dimensions.  A lot of people have written about the subject.  Ideas flow in, and we, much like radio receivers, pick them up and choose to run with them or not.  This is often why you see the same ideas popping up in different parts of the world around the same time, or if you're lucky (or perhaps not), you'll see someone else bring a creative idea to life that you had actually written down at some point in the past.  That can be tough.  It's a sense of, "Oh, man.  I had that idea last year."  Even with all of my note taking from time to time, I'm extremely poorly organized in terms of solid note management.  I used to be fairly adept at keeping different notebooks for different ideas - one for sketch comedy, one for performance art ideas, one for original songs, one for meditation, etc., but as I've gotten older, it's all gotten rather mixed up.  These days I grab the nearest notebook and just jot down whatever the thought might be, and I still don't do it often enough.  Many times I'll go through a book a rip out certain pages and try to group them with other pages and it all becomes a fragmented mess.

As my recent series of event strings, what I call guided information sourcing, has continued over the past couple of months, I've begun to think a lot about the Cosmic Initiation last year, and the huge amount of information that flooded into my world.  I went back and looked at some of the posts, reread them and tweaked some syntax here and there, and I realized how filtered some of the late 2009 posts appear to me now.  There was a reason.  Along with the chaotic handwritten notes, I also typed up things in Notepad on various documents, trying desperately to tone down the emotions that I was feeling (just the facts, please), so that when I chose to post something, I could squarely present the information so as not look like a raving lunatic.  For some reason, it felt right at the time, and I'll attempt to explain why as I go along.  That time in my life was unlike any other, and there was a lot of information coming to me, so much so that I couldn't even be bothered with trying to write some of it down, let alone explain it, but after the recent reorganizing and also discovering a stack of pieces of paper that I scribbled on during that time, I started to see how this recent event string of the past couple of months has converged with several  key points within last year's bundle of information, and certain contexts have now emerged, at least for me.

In the post below from Drunvalo Melchizedek concerning his latest video, "2012. Prophecies from the Heart," he talks about coming earth changes and Mother Earth protecting those who are in tune with higher vibrations by actually changing the reality around them.  That is a rather powerful assertion.  Could it be true?  In the post about Dolores Cannon where she talks about DNA Activation, she mentions the same thing.  She takes it a step further and says that the earth will actually "split" into two earths, a higher and a lower earth, each existing in a different dimension.  The old earth will stay in three dimensions and the new earth will be vibrating in what I assume will be the fourth or fifth dimension, actually existing within a higher vibration.  Just how this could be possible I can't begin to explain, however, if all of Maya is in fact illusion, based upon the action of the observer viewing reality, as has been revealed in recent discoveries in the world of quantum physics, and as explored in films like "What the Bleep", I suppose anything is possible.

What I find compelling here is that this reflects almost precisely what I felt during the three or so weeks during the very intense part of my cosmic initiation period, which started around December 21 of 2009.  I mentioned it in the "Recap" post, where I distinctly felt as though I had vibrated into a higher dimension, because every way in which I was accustomed to experiencing the world had changed, and those with whom I had contact during that time, friends and strangers alike, could see and/or feel it.  It was that intense.  My eyes appeared different during this time to those who knew me as well.  Many commented on that when they saw me.  And even though I'm a rather gentle person, a wave of gentleness and peace surrounded me that I had not known before.  Calmness.  Peace.  Literally no worries.  And within was a fountain of childlike wonder and amusement that constantly bubbled up in the most playful of ways.  Smiles were effortless and for much of each day, a feeling of butterflies in my stomach gave me an anticipation for each moment just as it unfolded.  It was a beautiful place to be.

Up until that point, I hadn't really ever considered the earth splitting and vibrating into two earths in two different dimensions, or vibrational frequencies.  I pondered that very question for several days during this time.  I had to, because I was trying to find some kind of point of reference for how my view of reality had changed and why.  I remember having NPR radio on at one point during that time, and they were playing an excerpt of Obama speaking about something.   I immediately thought, "So how would this work?  If the world has split and I'm in some sort of higher vibrational earth and Obama is speaking, am I listening to his higher self speak?"  It was confusing, yet something had changed.  Was it only me?  My left brain was trying to find context in order to rationalize my new perspectives.  Like a clutch trying to find a gear, it just seemed to keep slipping here and there.  It kept presenting basic computational "If / Then" scenarios.  At times I began to tire of this, and a distinct awareness of the struggle of duality, of the battle between the left and right brains rose within my being, and I started to recall many of the teachings that I had learned years earlier in Kabbalah studies.

I remember heading out early one morning considering this vibrational split question and thinking, "If this has occurred, then it should be relatively obvious to observe.  People should appear to be kinder, there should virtually no violence, and a sense of kinship, unity and love should be everywhere."  But things didn't add up that way.  I kept considering it over and over for about two days, because my reality had certainly changed, but it didn't appear to be something that had pervaded human society.  As a result, I turned the question inward, focusing on the pulsation that was being constantly generated on my back and directing questions like, "What is it that I am experiencing here exactly?"  Context was often hard to find.  Was I thinking too much?  It has only been with hindsight and additional guided information sourcing that I've been able to piece together some kind of overall picture that I can add to my mosaic, my reality tunnel.  Had something happened to my DNA whereby I was able to become "switched on" somehow to perceptions of the world at a higher frequency?  I was questioning that very possibility as various teachings from the past simmered within me.

For the past several years, I have been listening to the Solfeggio Frequencies, channeled DNA activation music and doing various meditations on the subject.  I encourage anyone who is interested in the DNA activation phenomenon to do a web search, as there is a growing amount of information available on the web now and there are many different video uploads on YouTube containing each of the frequencies separately.  I would also recommend searching binaural beats.  Like many other pieces of information, my personal awareness about DNA activation came into existence from the ether in late 2007 during meditation, where I clearly saw virtually the same image that you see below, of the spiraling spheres.  Literally within about twenty minutes after coming out of that meditation, I began searching on the web and came across the image below, representative of a set of four channeled DNA activation cds, which, despite not really having the money for them at the time, I purchased immediately.  It was one of the most rewarding meditations I'd ever had up until that point, and the measure of coincidence was just too high for me to ignore, so I went with the flow.  During the mid 90s there was a period of several years where I listened to brainwave cds during the time that I slept, Alpha, Beta, Delta and Theta waves.  Ever the seeker, and especially after receiving this spot-on image in mediation - and shortly thereafter finding it on the web - I felt that this was something I felt I had to explore.

The more I think about this, the more I wonder if, during all that had happened during the three month (total) initiation odyssey - the shadow work, the compass of the heart, the atonement, the oracle, the breath-work purge resulting in my black tongue, the lifted gaze, the pulsation in my back, the glowing white inside of my closed eyelids and all of the information bombardment - is that perhaps this experience of altered perceptions was an introduction of something that is still to come, as if the universe had let me "play in the field" to get a sense of what this would be like.  It's an exciting possibly for me to consider, especially now, when I don't really have much if anything to look forward to in my life anymore.  I'm currently much like a ship adrift in the middle of a calm sea with visible, growing storm clouds on the horizon, waiting for the wind to pick up so that I can set sail for distant shores.  My life seems to have grinded to a halt in many ways, and as a result, I'm forced to continually search within, meditate and go with the flow of any information that comes my way.  At times this is really frustrating.  For most of my adult life, I have been extremely busy, often working as many as four jobs at once, and most of them with joy because I had been creating and sharing art.  I feel that if spirit guides or Source energy is directing me, that it should just reveal itself after all this time, come through the walls, have a seat and let's talk.  I want to understand.  I want to chart a direction.  I want to make a plan.

Some days I get frustrated and kind of angry.  Why can't things just move along here?  I also get so restless that while I'm reading about stuff on the web, I'll visit some of the darker sites out there, the ones that feed on conspiracy theories, just to see if anything alarming or stimulating has been posted, and if so, I'll try to find similar info posted from trusted news sources to get to the heart of what is often rumor that has been blown up into viral memes.  It's like a part of me knows and/or is waiting for the current systems of the world to fail, and it can't come fast enough.  I guess it's similar to that rubber-neck syndrome we all have where we're drawn to look at a car accident.  I know it's not healthy, and I don't spend that much time looking at those sites because it can lower my vibration.  That's one of the reasons that I keep that kind of content off of this blog.  There's plenty of it out there, and I'd rather not be an aggregator of shock content.  That job is already being done, and the lower vibrational path is too easy to follow, leading to all kinds of conjecture, strange thought tangents and unhealthy emotions.  I now understand that it's just a part of the duality of the left brain / right brain way in which we perceive the world.  "I'm trying to remember something, perhaps many things," I tell myself.  I have to stay that course.  This is about remembering something that has to do with my true nature.  The search for understanding is expansive and involves learning, not something that boxes me in and forces my perceptions to shrink or contract.

I was thinking about this earlier today when I was out on my morning power walk.  My neighborhood isn't so desirable, but just to the south of me are some tremendous mansions that are punctuated by some incredible tropical landscaping.  I thank the universe every morning that I'm able to walk through such beauty and it makes me homesick for my virtual land business, in which I used to create the same kinds of environments.  I'll take it, though.  It's a privilege to be able to behold beauty like that on a daily basis and I'm thankful that I live in a part of the country where I'm able to do that.  So why can't things just move along?  And by things I mean any type of ascension or consciousness expansion.  I had such a strong dose of it during the initiation time that it's the only place I want to be now.  I was comforted by the words of Adyashanti in one of his YouTube videos where he talks about awakening, saying that it's not, or hasn't been up until this point, a constant state of awareness for many who have awakened.  It ebbs and flows.  He mentioned though that once one does taste that bliss, it's all you want.  This is so true.  As I've stated previously, the magic of the universe is as playful as a kitten when it unfolds around you.  It's like a walking orgasm and it makes much of our modern world and its systems seem like pure futility.

In the notes that I had recently come across, I was startled by one of the earliest things that I had written down during the initiation.  It was about love, which is what this feeling was that vibrated through me and pulsed physically from a point in my back across my entire being...

"It's ready to pour over your being like hot butter...

'Hot Buttered Soul'

Try to know this with your heart and not your mind.  

In order to receive it, you have to realize that it must be given away.  

You can't keep it inside.  
Don't think about it.  Don't think - Do.  

It will only stay with you if you are willing to share it."

I loved the Isaac Hayes reference.  For me, the essence of this message was about joy and living in the present moment, the Now.  I had never thought of the "Hot Buttered Soul" album in such a context before.  I was lucky to have met Isaac during the 90s, and have always been a fan of his stuff from the 70s.  As I also mentioned in some detail in the Recap post, I was led to listen to quite a few songs during this time, old and new, many of which I'd heard probably a hundred times in the past, but upon listening under this universal influence of love energy, the songs took on whole new meanings for me.  In addition to the George Harrison and Brian Wilson tracks that I mentioned in that post, ELO's "Mr. Blue Sky" was one another one, as was Billy Preston's "Will It Go Round In Circles," all of which took on brand new meanings for me as I heard the words and experienced the songs in a whole new way.  It was as if as this door to a different perception opened up, the universe came right up to me, face to face, and began to communicate with me through something with which I was very familiar - music.

"I've got a song that ain't got no melody.... I've got a dance that ain't got no steps... gonna let the music move me around," from Billy Preston in "Circles".  I felt like the universe was showing me how to experience this state of mind.  Chills are flowing all over me as I write this and listen to "Circles" for the first time since January of last year.  I remember thinking, "Holy Shit! - the universe - Source - this energy - this is the coolest presence I've ever felt in my life - like the coolest person I've ever known," - but it was way beyond that.  "Of course!" came into my mind as this occurred during the beginning of the three-week heavy time, "It's the wisdom that made you.  What else would you expect?"  That's how cool this felt.  It made so much sense, was so familiar, like I'd forgotten about the best surprise anyone could ever get in one's lifetime, and my old perceptions of the world tumbled into the background like a bundle of dirty rags.

Little did I know at that time just how wonderfully bizarre things were going to get as I continued to ride with that vibe and go down the rabbit hole.  At times it felt similar to those scenes in "Close Encounters of the Third Kind" where they're learning a new language in front of a large spaceship.  One thing that I should mention that I also noticed immediately, as this experience of perception expanded, all fear - and I mean all fear - disappeared from me.  At times I felt invincible.  That's how powerful this was.  It didn't matter what happened.  I remembered how as a very young child that's how myself and my friends would often feel.  At one point I was reminded of the bible scripture that says that one must be like a child in order to enter the Kingdom of Heaven, and how in the (Gnostic) Gospel of Thomas (unlike many of the other books of the bible and consequently not included in most modern bibles), Jesus said that the Kingdom of Heaven is within.  Of course, this resonated with the many different types of teachings I had received over the years, but the fact that it gave me additional context from a biblical perspective amused me, since I had abandoned that type of belief system long ago and now see it, along with many of the modern translations of holy books as metaphor, rather than literal history.

It didn't stop there.  I began to see for the first time just how deeply we are boxed into our compartmentalized versions of reality.  So much so that it's virtually impossible to see the universe for what it is - one universe within a multiverse of All That Is, Hermetically speaking.  That's how messed up this planet is right now.  This is not how it's supposed to be.  What we see with our physical eyes and experience in the physical world is only one type of singular mentality, one small group of frequencies on a virtually endless spectrum.  We have closed ourselves off to such a degree that many may never become aware of this while on the physical plane.  I realized during this time that the universe speaks to everyone, to everything, in a unique way that appeals to the individual being that's just for them.  I was reminded of Morpheus in "The Matrix" telling Neo, "Whatever she said [the Oracle] was just for you."  I also got a sense that the universe is constantly, relentlessly speaking to all of us through art and creative works, if we are aware enough to pick up the vibrations.  But it doesn't stop at art, that's just one channel.  It's all around us, all of the time, waiting for us to notice its magic and calling us to come and play.  "I'm too busy, I'm too worried, I've got to do this and that," is what we often say to ourselves to squelch what could be potentially revealing moments of wonder.  This is where the importance of living in the Now takes on a whole new meaning, and why there are many awakened ones, such as Eckhart Tolle and the many enlightened yogis around the world who are alive in physical form at present, to teach us this way of being.

"Don't think - Do!" came into my mind every time I questioned an impulse that entered my energy field.  As I stated in the Recap post, even though this went on for weeks, I still often questioned it, and that was the response that came time and time again.  "Get in your car and drive."  Really?  "Don't think - Do,"  and hours later a wonderful series of events would have transpired.  I had never lived like that before.  Often these commands would come, as I've stated in the Recap post, like an old Rastafarian friend was hovering over me in another dimension, laughingly trying to jolt me into remembering more and more about the essence of who I am in order to elevate my consciousness.  "People hurt - Help.  Seen?"  was what came to me when I'd see people in need.  "Like Matrix - Just like Matrix.  Seen?"  about how this awareness was unfolding.  "Ism - Schism.  Seen?" about all of the dogmatic divisions around the world.  Many times I would just burst out laughing, like I was at a party wherever I went with very animated unseen friends whom I loved dearly that were dropping some serious science on me.  It tickled me to my core.  "This is the coolest thing ever," I thought, "I never want to return to my old perceptions of this world.  This is just too damn cool."  If you can capture for a second what like must have been like, you'll get a peak into the real magic of the universe.

The music portion of the program continued through the initiation period.  Virtually every song I listened to, including newer songs that I was directed to at the time from Broken Bells, Quadron, FC Kahuna's "Hayling", Viex Farka Tourè's "Fafa" and many others opened up vistas in my perception, as if they were charged with this energy, each containing windows of fascination in them, having been brought into the physical realm at just this time, ready to speak to people on subtle levels within their consciousness.  "Hayling" effected me so profoundly that it became part of how I would respond to people.  When friends would ask me, "How are you doing?" a warm smile would spread across my face and I would inevitably respond, "I'm just glad to be here."  The funny thing was that every time I said that, smiles would be returned to me as soon as I spoke those words, often followed by someone stroking my shoulder or giving me a hug.

For the sake of some context here, you should understand that I spent over twenty years in the music industry, during which time I have listened to literally tens of thousands of songs from all over the world, spanning all periods of time since the advent of recorded music.  During my time as a nightclub and rave deejay, I played music for people, mostly brand new at its time, to over 1.5 million people over the course of about fifteen years.  I lived for that experience and more importantly, being able to share it with others.  The rhythms, the tribal nature of it all, touched me so deeply that for many years it was all that I wanted to do - search out, find and share new sounds.  This, however, was a whole new level.  The universe was showing me how it has embedded its positive vibrations everywhere, like magical little prizes that can open us up to higher vibrations if we are in tune to receive the information.

I could actually began to percieve the hand of the universe emerging in art and speaking to me, even if it was the furthest thing from the artist's mind while creating the work.  Within that realization, a sense of awareness of sacred beauty began to reveal itself around me.  Usually one has to enter into some serious journey work via psychedelics to come even close to that type of expanded perception of music using some pharmaceutical grade MDA and ghanja.  Not these feelings, and they were even more intense, and I did a lot of journey work in my younger years.  I was experiencing the Now on a whole other level, even after a couple of years since first reading one of Eckhart Tolle's books and noticing changes in my perception during that time that brought about an awareness of the Now.  This was bigger, more expansive and seemingly endless, and these energies appeared to delight in me experiencing them as much as I did feeling my perceptions change.  The Now IS the universe, in all of its glory, unfolding all around us every second of every day.  "If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you might miss it," as Ferris would say.

Doing without thinking was the key.  As Paramahamsa Nithyanada states in the video included in my "Enlightened View of 2012" post that I came across nearly a year after these profound experiences, this is what it's all about.  It's about a way of Being.  Connect to this energy and you've found bliss and wonder almost beyond measure.  But it hasn't been easy for me to return to that state.  As I said earlier, this experience for me seemed to be a "taste" of what was to come.  As far as I'm concerned, if that's truly the case, it can't come fast enough.  Six months after the initiation experience, I found myself in the midst of health and worsening financial problems.  It even became hard at times for me to meditate during many of the months of 2010 as I continued to get caught up in survival.  During the past few months and particularly weeks as I've continued to reflect on that time, another component that I referenced early in this post also came back to me that I don't think I mentioned in the Recap and I wanted to address here.  It's vitally important.  One has to be a Supreme Ninja in terms of managing the duality of perception.  By that I mean you must train yourself to diffuse your ego, which is no easy task.  It can take a lifetime.  For some it never happens despite massive amounts of effort.  This is one of the reasons Buddhist monks spend time in isolation away from much of society.

The human ego is the ultimate enemy.  The world you see around you right now is the result of the human ego.  Virtually every problem, every imbalance, every injustice, every war, can all be traced back to the ego.  The ego operates in the left brain, the rational mind, whereas the right brain is the source of creativity, intuition, emotion and it's our connection to our subconscious and other dimensions.  Unless one has begun to train oneself in the art of war with the ego, it can often be extremely difficult to move into right brain perception and continually experience the Now.  Artists operate from the right brain.  Politicians, bankers, etc. from the left brain.  A healthy person incorporates both into daily activity, but the ego is the ultimate adversary.  Of course you need your left brain to make rational decisions, but the trick is to relegate it to do only that, and not incorporate the defense of the "I" - your worldly sense of the physical "You" as a physical being.  This is what the Rastafarians refer to when saying "I and I," meaning I am in control of that balance and see it for what it is... everything is in its proper place within me.  When I was studying at the Kabbalah Centre in Los Angeles over the course of 2004, one of the instructors I had was well versed in this type of warfare, and helped give me the tools to recognize the enemy, its craft and its relentless assault on the mind.  In Kabbalah, the ego is the Satan force (pronounced, Sah-tahn).  It is with you at virtually every turn.  Like the best classic Kung Fu or martial arts films, just when you think you vanquished it, it appears again, often disguising itself, stalking you like a master tactician.

It never stops.  It is your perception of your "I", your concept of yourself, your story and the sum-total of your experiences.  It will fight your right brain to the death to defend its "Self", what you consider "You", which is an illusion, because we, all living and non-living things, are really one.  This is the struggle of duality and the opposite of the unity consciousness.  This is also where the old school religions tricks the masses.  They teach that the "Sah-tahn" force is actually personified as someone called Satan, who is a red, cloven-hoofed entity with horns and a pitchfork that lives somewhere deep in the earth or up in the sky and is ready to "get you" if you're not careful.  As I have said in previous posts, any type of dogma that tells you to look outside of yourself like that, is a trick to distract you from the truth and a construction of limited, left brain thinking.  Such distractions make you miss the point and are designed to make you think that your problems and challenges in understanding the nature of your being lie somewhere outside of yourself, in shadows, around corners and in other people.  In Kabbalah, to sin is "to miss... to miss the point."  This is part of what I mean when I say that many of the great and powerful religions of this world are either upside down or backward, becoming sin itself by making people miss this point of their own existence.

As my initiation period continued, this became apparent to me in ways that I hadn't previously realized.  I was fortunate enough to have developed certain tools during my time at the Kabbalah Centre and had practiced enough to the point where I could recognize the ego with mindfulness.  As I proceeded down the road of initiation, especially before the Atonement period, I was shown this on a whole other level.  The movements in Martial Arts, just like many other things, reflect the interactions of sacred geometries.  I was shown that one had to be a ninja with the ego, maintaining guard over one's mind 24/7, and attacking any single thought that doesn't serve this new-found state of being as soon as it enters one's sphere of consciousness.  This went on for days and nights, and I eventually started to take great pleasure in it.

I would not allow any negativity, even the increasing weight of having to pay bills, rent, whatever it was that would send me into the left brain thinking of "But I've got to do this."  My visualizations became full-on immense.  Out would come the blade and I would kill the thoughts that represented negativity as quickly as they came.  As time went on, I learned to elevate this type of mental exercise so that it could serve as a foundation for a higher type of "spiritual" warfare, the key component of which is not suppressing the negative thoughts.  This is key, because certain lower frequency emotions associated with some kinds of thoughts actually serve the individual.  Fear and anger can be useful, and suppression without acknowledgment only leads to more confusion within one's subconscious mind and can backfire at any moment.  I developed a new way of allowing the thoughts to come, not judging them or pushing them away, but allowing them to come and then, after acknowledging and even thanking them, I would dissolve and/or let them pass through my sphere without serious focus or attention.  "Got it.  Thanks."  My Kabbalah training from previous years ended up serving me well during that time.

The ego is virtually impossible to stop, although many of the great yogis have gotten to the point where they have excelled at this type of mental and/or spiritual warfare for so long that the ego is not a factor for them anymore.  That is why they are the great yogis.  As my initiation continued, I developed a method for dealing with the ego that ended up being quite effective with practice.  I was reminded of something that Paramahansa Yogananda said, words to this effect:  "Your divine being [essence] is your kingdom.  This is where the spirit reigns and you are one with the Creator.  Within your kingdom is a castle on a hill.  This is where your essence resides.  It is peaceful and blissful all of the time.  Around the perimeter, the enemy [negative thought] is constantly at the gates, ready to storm the kingdom and your castle.  Within your castle resides your endless fountain of happiness [your heart], which is your constant connection with the Creator.  Any time that you allow negative thoughts or state of mind to enter the kingdom and you become unhappy, you are allowing the enemy into your kingdom by dropping your guard."

At first I was the ninja.  After days of constantly using this practice, I started to visualize myself sitting on a chair in the center of a large ring that was filled with sand.  Me sitting on the chair in the center of the ring became my castle, the ring my kingdom, and instead of being the ninja, I became the king on the throne, and I would visualize sending a ninja or two out to run around the edge of the ring to guard the perimeter of my mind.  As negative thoughts would come, the ninjas acted like sentries alerting me to activity at the gate.  This of course took place in milliseconds.  I wouldn't push the thoughts away, but allow them to enter without judgment, thanking negative emotions for alerting me to their left brain concerns, and then I would direct a ninja to slay them outright, wherein they would dissolve into nothingness.  This way I didn't suppress any emotions and I stayed in balance.  They were recognized for what they were, thanked for the reminder or concern, and dissolved before they could replicate into a system or circle of thoughts that would lower my vibration, which is their nature.  During this time I was reminded of how Dr. Wayne Dyer had talked about this very type of interaction during the mid-90s, and I had failed to fully grasp what this practice entailed on a daily basis.  Wayne was one of my first influential "gurus", for lack of a better word, and helped to set me on the course that I find myself pursuing today.

And just like a king listening to a worrisome subject come to him with concerns that didn't need to be dwelt upon or protracted with a nasty entanglement of potential hyperbole and the useless expenditure of emotion, I began to build up a resistance to what used to be a nearly constant attack of negative thoughts that were waiting to germinate into full-blown states of mind that didn't serve me.  I was reminded of the Buddhist concept of "effortless effort," which is what this process eventually became.  The longer I did this, the more comparisons to Neo learning how to battle in "The Matrix" came into my mind.  What a prophetic movie.  I'm so glad that it was made, and I am thankful for the brilliance of the Wachowski brothers in making that story a reality.  It was a film for its time,  a reflection of the human condition on the planet right now, and each of us is Neo.  "Neo" meaning new, and representative of a new form of conscious awareness.  This type of warfare, which comes about through the cultivation of mindfulness, needs to be done constantly in order to keep your vibration from becoming heavy and sinking into the lower frequencies, wherein depression and all sorts of negativity resides.

It takes constant practice, but with focus and determination one can learn to do battle with the ego.  In Kabbalah they used to joke that ego stood for "Everybody's Got One" in English.  The ego is as I said earlier, your sense of "I" and the greatest adversary any of us will ever face.  If you start to monitor yourself with diligent mindfulness, which can be another daunting task to many at first, the ego is easily recognized as the part of you that says things like, "How dare you!" - "I'm offended!" - "But I deserve this or that!" and "Nobody's going to do that to me!"  Of course, anger itself it can be useful at times, however, left unmonitored without any effort to recognize it for what it is can lead to great atrocities, as we see every day as presented within the mainstream media.  But the ego is also much more subtle and devious.  It's present even when you think it's not.  Its cleverness and cunning is unmatched.  It is the great seducer.  Even with practice, the ego will emerge as a sense of, "Wow, I've got this ego thing under control.  Look at that.  Good job."  That's how powerful it is.  After all, as I stated in a previous post, the ego itself is actually what drives us toward awakening and enlightenment.  That is the great irony of the ego.  But the ego can only take us so far, like a sherpa traveling up a great mountain, however, it cannot enter the heart space, or the potential mountain peak of our existence.  It can only get us do the door, the entrance.

This is what Jesus spoke about in the parable where he said that "It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than it is for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven."  The churches today twist this to mean that if you're wealthy, you won't go on to a blissful place after you die.  They do this for a reason, to breed and maintain subtle divisions and contempt for others based on social status, just like governments, banks, corporations and the mainstream media.  Doing so maintains thought constructs, memes and methods of mind control.  Jesus was actually making reference to the egoic concerns that naturally often accompany great material wealth and accomplishment.  Therein often lies the sense of "I am great.  Look what I've done.  I am so-and-so," which is part of a person's personal story.  When one achieves what can be considered earthly greatness, it can become harder to distance oneself from the "I" that he or she has created.  It's a matter of cause and effect and a cautionary tale within the context of the parable.  The doorway into the heart space is the eye of the needle, meaning that you can't take anything else into that space.  It's just the divine essence of your being in direct communication with Creator or Source, in the Now, just being... without thought, only action within the present moment.  Such is also the context for Ram Daas' book, "Be Here Now" and the work of many others within the field of consciousness expansion. 

As Drunvalo and others have talked about, this place within the heart is the scared place from which we can create anything, yet it is a very difficult thing to master, having to contend with the nature of duality, as we are taught and conditioned to only create from our minds.  Unknowingly, many of us create from the mind with duality, often creating the exact opposite of what we had intended, as Drunvalo has pointed out in the 2012 Prophecies video.  The more you train yourself to recognize it and the thought forms that it brings to your mind, which then become systems of thoughts or thought strings, you can begin to act as a ninja and in a way, slay negative thoughts after acknowledgments without suppression so that they don't hold any emotional weight.  That's the trick.  Part of what the word enlightenment means is in fact to become lighter.  We achieve that state by not becoming bogged down in thoughts and emotions of a lower frequency, which have weight, or greater density to them.

Every thought form is an energy system with an intelligence, and we are vibratory beings.  This is one of the reasons that music is the "universal language," why music can "tame the savage beast" and has such a profound effect on us as humans, because we are vibrating energy systems that pulsate at different frequencies.  Different people, different music, different belief systems, all vibrate at different frequencies.  The lower frequencies are more dense, weighty and are what we experience as negative.  Interestingly enough, and something that the Oracle of the "Matrix" movie might say, "Here's something that's going to really bake your noodle later on," it is noted within The Kybalion - that according to ancient Hermetic Law, from the perspective of Source or All That Is, all extremes - such as love compared to hate - are essentially the same thing, they just vary in degree along a spectrum, and from the Creator's perspective, without judgment, are just simply "what is."  Our chakra system resides along a spectrum itself, just as the planets and all things do.  Each reflecting the model of the Tree of Life.  We choose, via the thoughts we maintain, to inhabit the vibratory fields in which we live, consciously or not.  There is essentially no good or no bad, yet each vibrational level has its own awareness, experience and principles of cause and effect.  We have freedom of choice, and for us, for our energy spark from Creator that is our essence, it is better for us to choose the higher vibrations, in which reside peace, joy and love.

The world today teaches us to divide, to engage in duality and division and view the world that way.  Often we do this without even knowing it.  It is what we have been taught, "That is bad, this is good."  The Buddhists say, "There is no good day and there is no bad day, there just is what is."   The ego wants to trick you into investing emotional energy in defending itself, your false sense of "I".  The "I" can be seen as the collective construct of the world as we know it, from the poor to the wealthy to the powerful to the group to the nation, it's all about the "I".  When you begin to see this and train yourself with mindfulness, the nature of the matrix in which we currently find ourselves, the Net of Maya, the plane of suffering, begins to crack and crumble in places and you become aware of something distinctly greater.

Before I end this post, here are a couple of other bits of observation and impression that were part of the initiation are worth mentioning.  During the eighth or ninth week into the larger period, during the intense time which included my Atonement, across the street from my building, sitting on the sidewalk for several hours each morning were a group of people that looked to be from the Andes Mountains in Chile.  Some mornings there were two or three, and other mornings four or five.  They were dressed in the traditional garments of that culture, highly recognizable because of their colorful garb, with its dark red hues and some of them wore head gear.  This lasted for about a week.  Every morning they were directly across the street, seeming to just be gazing at my building.  I could see them from my window.  Sometimes a couple of them would be standing, but most of them sat.  As I mentioned in the Recap post after being introduced to the significance of the spiral shape, I had noticed that the building in which I lived is adorned with them.  By that time in the initiation period I had become aware of this, and wondered if they were looking at the spirals for some reason.  I was very curious as to who they were and why they were here.  Across the street from me is a large industrial area, and there is nothing to do there, no shops for blocks in either directions.

To this day I keep wanting to ask the building's owner why he had the building painted like that, adorned in spirals, but I don't see him very often.  Still, at some point, I am going to ask him about that choice.  Personally, upon discovering them during the initiation period and being amazed that I had never noticed them in the four months prior since arriving here, I felt that it meant protection of some kind.  The fact that those Chileans were there for that extended time and I have not seen them since has always left me with some questions.  As with every move that I made during that time, I filtered the observation of this group through the pulsation in my back that seemed to be connecting me to higher vibrations.  Was I to talk to them?  The pulsation never indicated that I should have, and I had become accustomed, albeit with questioning, to surrender to its direction and follow the "dont think - do" direction that it was giving me.  So I was never directed to go across the street and talk to them.  Had I been, I would have gone over on any of those mornings, sat with them and found out just who they were.  I left my building every single day during that time, and would just look at them with a smile as I went to my car.  They didn't seem particularly interested in me, so I would just go on my way.  Nobody has been there of that description since that time.

And another of the final bits I would like to include here has to do with incarnation, or reincarnation to be precise.  This is something that although I had considered it for years during the 90s while studying Buddhism, I resisted in principle because at that time I still had parts of the old, forced or inherited belief system that had not crumbled.  Coming around to accept reincarnation took me the better portion of my life.  It was a testament to just how rigid and confining my inherited / forced belief system was.  As with any element that is a part of one's spiritual journey, just like the things you might read on this blog, you must push to the side any information that doesn't resonate with you.  I do this rather consistently.  Over time, if part of your self discovery includes coming to terms with something that you had pushed aside in the past, the universe will eventually present the information in a context through which you can have an Aha moment and the information will blossom within you at the proper time.  This has been true for me on so many levels, including during my first trip to Mexico in the early 90s when I purchased various trinkets, one of which turned out to be a beautiful, colorful Mayan Calendar on a stand that I had in my possession, usually perched somewhere in my living room, and for years, I didn't know what it was.  I knew it was a calendar of some kind, but its significance escaped me for many years.  That's how the universe works sometimes.

For me, acceptance or really remembrance of reincarnation came through years of observing nature, its cycles, and putting those observations into the context of some of what I had read and learned along the way.  Now it makes perfect sense to me.  One of the singular most profound revelations of the initiation period for me came during the intense period after Atonement.  I received from Source energy the impression that I would eventually reincarnate... as a star.  If you had told me that twenty years ago, I'd have laughed at you.  This, I was told, was my part of my cosmic destiny, and I got a sense of the other stars that were to be near me in a galactic sense, along with what I'll say were planets but I'm not totally sure.  They were souls that I know or have known.  There were eleven others in my immediate system.  Yep, a star.  Go figure.  I was also shown that I had a twin.  It wasn't completely clear to me though as to whether I had known this twin in this physical incarnation.  I got the impression that I had not known the twin, but I'm not completely sure.  I thought of the "Twin Flame" that people have spoken about and the shadow work that I had done and wondered if that was a part of the twin thing.  As far as a reincarnation was concerned, least at this point in my journey and particularly after this trippy journey into the woo-woo, I believe that everything in the universe does have a soul, so anything's possible, as strange as it might sound to those reading this.  I have since read in a few areas that this is entirely possible during the course of our soul's evolution, which has given me further context into that long, strange odyssey of late 2009 - early 2010.

Finally, as I look over what I've written in this massive post, I realize that there are still some things that I have not included from the Initiation time, and why the Recap post, as lengthy as that was, only seemed to scratch the surface in terms of the overall Cosmic Initiation period.  There's no hyperbole in any of these posts.  I've been careful not to get carried away and have just focused what I happened to experience.  There is one element to the experience that I do feel that I need to include, which started around the time of my first visit to the Lake Shrine (a subsequent and even more interesting visit was covered in my "Do You See Me?" post) in early last year.  It's about breath.  As the odyssey began in November of 2009, I had returned to focusing on my breathing, which helps one to connect to Source energy, because it is the way in which we are actively connected to same.  By mid December as my perceptions expanded, a new awareness also came about with my breathing.  I felt nearly constantly that everywhere I went, as I breathed and I felt the ever-present vibrating pulsation on my back, that I was acting as some sort of conduit, a transmitter and a speaker of sorts... drawing in cosmic energy and then sending it out through my breath wherever I went.  Great peace accompanied this feeling and an ease of focus developed quite naturally very quickly.  I've felt that I had to get that down here in writing, as it was signatory of the overall connection that I was feeling.

One year after that fantastic series of experiences, I still struggle to maintain mindfulness and keep my vibration elevated.  It's tough, and anyone who has ever tried to maintain a high vibration knows this.  That's how powerful this egoic construct is.  It's much easier to zone out, get caught up the the worldly affairs of the day, take prescribed drugs and fall into the abyss of television and other forms of escape, yet that road eventually leads only to emptiness and a lack of fulfillment.  My great hope is that as we enter the Universal Cycle of the Mayan Calendar in the coming weeks, one of the things that will manifest within this cycle is an ease with which we can all stay connected to higher vibrations.  It is what has been spoken about and predicted by the ancient masters, and I am very much looking forward to the yoke of left brain bondage begin to lift.  Will the matrix begin to crumble, crack and fall apart?  Let's hope so.  Life can be so much more that what many of us are able to experience in this current reality.  It appears as though many people around the world realize this in one form or another - that something must change - even if they're not consciously aware of vibrational energies, ascension or the cycles of human evolution.

I hope that at least some of what I've recapped and covered here and in the other posts resonates with others out there, otherwise this blog serves no purpose.  I've felt led to put as much of what I've been experiencing and learning into words on this tiny little blog, which is only my own individual experience.  Just as we are all as uniquely different as snowflakes falling from the sky, each person's awakening experiences are going to be different, designed by the universe to be just for them, and I am trying to make sense of what I observe and feel as I move along through time, holding out hope for the dawn of a new day in the evolution of consciousness.

Seen?

Namaste.