Born Under A Balsamic Moon

I've never been one to seriously follow horoscopes.  I've been to many psychics over the years, usually gypsies during my two times living in New York and when I lived in Boston, I used to frequent the Tremont Tea Room.  The Tea Room had some good people working there, and I received many an interesting reading over the years.  I've also known a few people who studied birth signs, horoscopes and numerology extensively, and although I found numerology to be somewhat interesting, I've always found daily horoscopes to be random, subjective and open to such a wide variance of interpretation that they never seemed to have any real meaning in my life.  Especially these days, when one can go online to many different daily horoscope websites and find so many forecasts or explanations of what one might expect to encounter on any given day that it's all virtually useless.  

I currently live in an area where expansive consciousness awareness is probably more prevalent than most other parts of the US, and even here, many who follow a daily horoscope will say, "Well, you just have to find a good one, a good source."  I guess it's not anything I'm ever likely going to become immersed in, however, I did recently find something that was new to me, and appears to have some resonance within my being:  the phase of the moon under which I was born.  Although from what I've read, some say those birth traits are secondary within one's personality, I found that the birth traits of my moon phase and its karmic implications to appear to be the central threads or underpinnings of this life for me.  It's been something that I can take with me going forward for insights, and a window into which I can now view past events with a sense of fresh perspective.

There are eight phases that the moon goes through in a typical calendar month.  The New Moon, Waxing Crescent, First Quarter, Waxing Gibbous, Full Moon, Disseminating or Waning Gibbous, The Last Quarter and the Balsamic or Waning Crescent.  Each phase has its own period during every calendar month and can signify elements of the life path of those born under each type of moon phase.  I've read about this on about ten websites thus far, comparing notes and the information appears to be the same in terms of the birth traits and where I am within a particular karmic cycle.  From what I've read, each karmic cycle also has eight components.

For me, there have been some common threads in my life that I've known since I was very young, the first of which being that I didn't want to have any children.  I love kids, but for some reason I've known since I was five or six that having children just was not be in the cards for me.  Second, I have known that in this life I wanted to explore and confront my fears and emotions and live many lives within this physical incarnation for the purpose of exploration and expansion of my consciousness.  I have done this to the point where I have lived as both genders, as well as many different sides of my personality in many different parts of the country, depending upon what type of art or expression that I was involved with at any time.  Third, and even more profoundly, I have known since a very young age that I had a need - almost a compulsion - to not want to owe anybody anything when I leave this physical plane.  I have often said that aloud, and have made great efforts to make peace with those with whom I have disagreed or acted inappropriately by mending our relationships.  That can be very humbling, but it is also very rewarding in terms of the peace that such mending can bring to one's soul.

It wasn't until coming across the moon phases and birth traits in terms of one's karmic cycle in early December of last year that the aforementioned elements began to become alive in my perception with a perspective that I had not known before... a sort of series of soft "Aha" moments.  My life had really started to make sense to me and gave me insight into who I am, what sometimes drives me and why.  In early November of last year, just prior to coming across the moon phases information, I had come across a video upload on YouTube featuring author and lecturer Dolores Cannon talking about Volunteer Souls within the context of lost ancient knowledge.  That video series is posted on this blog here.  If you don't know about Dolores' work, I recommend viewing the videos, which I have updated to include the entire series.  Should you identify yourself as an Indigo Child, or have often felt out of place in this world, as a stranger in a strange land, you might enjoy what she has to say.  The information she presents is not hers exclusively insofar as the big picture is concerned.  She is a hypnotherapist and she gets her data from her clients using the deepest type of hypnosis currently known, similar to the work of Dr. Michael Newton, whose books I also recommend.  The bigger picture, however, is a far more grand tale that is akin to taking a peak beyond the veil that surrounds us on earth and into an exquisitely magical universe that's far more exciting than virtually anything most of us have been taught.

 

I've known that I'm a first-wave Indigo since first reading about the phenomenon many years ago, although the limited information that was available on the subject, save for a handful of books, was skant prior to the internet.  So much of what Dolores says in the video interview applies to me:  a constant urge of feeling that I'm far away from home, that I want to return home soon, that I don't want children, that I can often be a loner and I tend to work alone, independently.  I have a high IQ, disdain for authority, high intuition and despite the wonder and awe of the beauty of the natural world that I love, I've always found it difficult to come to terms with this "civilization" that we humans have created with its divisiveness and lack of unity.  During my younger years and well into my twenties, many times I would take walks at night, constantly gazing up at the stars and say, "What?  What is it that you want me to do here?  I feel like I don't belong," not knowing to whom I was directing those questions.  It was something from deep within me trying to understand something that I couldn't see or remember, yet the feeling of there being more to my physical incarnation than just my five senses was deeply rooted and inescapable.

That sense of feeling like I'm from and have lived within other worlds has increased ten fold during my last four years creating miniature environments within virtual reality simulators.  My thousands of hours inside the simulators, headphones on, collapsing thought forms of inspiration into geometric shapes and structures, flying across vast landscapes like a bird, awakened something profound within my soul... it's a sense of "Yes, I have done this before, I remember" -  I have transported myself to strange worlds and learned the physics of the realm in order to create and navigate.  Even during my Cosmic Initiation period that started in late 2009, where I had an Atonement experience that appeared to be karma-related, I felt as though the karma for which I was atoning was not my own, but from my bloodline and likely represented me setting straight karma from others within my bloodline or from my same strain of DNA who had gotten caught within the wheel of repeated incarnation and karma.  That was a strange experience, and I might not know what it was all about until after I've left this incarnation.  It was profound nonetheless.

There are several websites where you can enter your birth date to find out what moon phase you were born under.  One of them is AstroDreamAdvisor.  On that page, you can read about the various moon phases and birth traits.  Another particularly fun site for information about your date of birth is available on Paul Sadowski's website, where you can read a trove of information that's presented to be both interesting and fun, much of it for entertainment.  For me, being born under a Balsamic Moon, I am at the end of a karmic cycle.  Life for me is supposed to be about tying off loose ends, making amends, reflecting on the past and planting seeds for my next karmic round.  I can't overstate how much this has enhanced my view of my life on so many levels.  I hope you find some insights into yourself by exploring those or other similar websites.  Once you've found your moon phase, do a web search for its traits, as there are many websites out there that can give you insight into yourself.

For those born under a Balsamic Moon, this is what you can expect to find:

The Balsamic Moon phase represents the end of the karmic round. The mature plant is ready to let its seeds blow in the winds until they find a spot where they can grow on their own.  In an existence marked by this phase, the individual is concerned with wrapping up old projects and loose ends.  A powerful desire to rectify the misdeeds of the past can lead to preoccupation with memories of bygone days.  Such reminisces may be an unhealthy obsession, or they may enrich the soul with the essence of garnered experience.  At the same time, one may look wistfully toward the future in anticipation of a new karmic cycle and a new purpose to be undertaken under the coming new Moon...

This time is essentially one of transition, a chance to contemplate what has passed, tie up loose ends, journey inwards, and prepare for new beginnings ahead.  You have inherited the meditative and introspective characteristics of this phase and yours is a dreamy, contemplative personality. Intuitive and far-sighted, you have innate wisdom and a mystical understanding of the workings of Mother Nature and of the human condition.  For you, activity is spiritual and intellectual rather than physical.  Your experiences involve endings and passings, so you are likely to live through many changes.  Later life, rather than the earlier years, holds the key to your happiness and success...

As a Balsamic born, you could be one who seems somehow out-of-sync with the majority, one about whom it could be said "listens to the beat of a different drummer."  You may have a sense of the prophet about you. You are sure that you have a special destiny but are not too clear on just what it is or where you are going, but you are ready to flow with it.  Many experience the Progressed Balsamic Moon period as a true "dark of the moon," but it should not be looked upon as a fallow period when nothing is accomplished.  You will probably try several new starts in your attempt to reach out for your new cycle.  Some of them will fall by the wayside, but others -- or one -- will prove to be the successful conception of the new cycle.  Do not mourn for what has ended -- it has served its purpose. Know that every ending is the seed of a new beginning. The wheel keeps turning...

This is a time for contemplation. I f you have gone with the flow of the previous seven steps you are ready to think about the next cycle.  There could be an empty feeling while being in transition between the past lesson and remaining hopeful for the next.  If you were born under a Balsamic Moon, you will find spiritual and intellectual activity more appealing than physical.  You may appear a dreamer while your intuition, innate wisdom and understanding of the mysteries of the world keep you slightly detached.  Your mission in life could feel bigger than you.

Namaste.